Sorrow. Sorrow. Sadness. Tired. So tired. Want. Love. Want to love. Aching heart. Loss. Loss of what? Tired. Oh so tired. Love. Sadness. Loss. Heart. Tears. Girls. Will never have real love. Want real love. Sadness. Want want want. So sad. Empty. Hollow. So hollow. Porn. Filling the hollow with immorality. More sadness. Hopeless. Loss. Life. Want love. No love. No deepness. Empty. Cold. Alone. So alone. Want. Depression. Alone. Love. Hopeless. Alone. So alone. No-one here. Love. Closeness. Alone. Cold. So alone. Depression. Start over. Sickness. Different. Useless. Incompetent. Good for nothing. Shit. Refuse. Hate. Anger. Sadness. Love. Rejection. Alone. So alone. Want love. No one. God. Uncertainty. Believe. I believe. Sadness still there. Anger still there. Depression still there. Rejection still there. Unfair. Cold. Human love. God love. Shame. Stupid. Foolish. Sad. Love. Cold. Black. Want. Life. Light. No light. Dark. No comfort. Cold. Hardened. Sad underneath. Angry underneath. Want underneath. Love underneath. Can't break through. So sad. Sad. Sad. Sad. Love. Want to love. Afraid. No one to love. Deep love. Want. Rejection. Porn. Emptiness. Sadness. Hating myself. Deeper. Depression. Alone. Sickness. Death. Lungs. Stomach. Arm. Tubes. Medication. Nurses. Doctors. Cold. No love. Cure. No cure. Never a cure. Death. One certainty. Death. Depression. Acceptance. Love. Want to empathize. Unable. No empathy. Sadness. Hardness. Weakness. Shut off. No love. Inward. God. Man. Love. Girls. Impossibility. Unlovable. Porn. Sadness. Emptiness. Unfulfilled. Job. Bad health. Internet distracts. Parents interfere. Anger. Contempt. Love. Leave. Want. Fight. Hurt. Defeat. Health. Unending cycle. No comfort. Doing better. Not good enough. Never good enough. No love. Want love. Crave love. Take. Selfish. Girls. No girlfriend. Never will have girlfriend. Impossibility. Rejection. Useless. Skinny. Smart. Handsome. Incompetent. Can do anything. Never does anything. Unfit for dating. Unfit for life. Cold. Dependent. Miserable. Independence. Impossibility. Emo. Sarcasm. Writing. Loving. Death. Sickness. Sadness. Shadow. Talons. Spears. Arrows. Sadness. Tubes. Nurses. Doctors. Cable TV. Death. Closed off. Craving. Depression. Hurt. Uncertainty. Endless. Self sympathy. Hating one's self for sympathy. Video games. Internet. Numb. Feel good. Burying issues. Wishes. Losing myself. 3D graveyard. Brain. Intelligence. Cold. Alone. Dead. I am dead. No life. No reason to wake. No one cares. No one will ever care. Love. Caring. God. People. Love. God. Love. God. Friends. Want. Don't have. None true. No trust. Girls. Hate. Love. God. Love. Want. Give. Internet. Porn. Love. False. Frustration. Emptiness. Feeling nothing. Numb. Don't care. Love. Impossibility.
Love.
People, I just want to say, when you see a friend is straying away, do not talk behind their backs. Do not judge. Love them. Talk to them. Bring them back. The world is harsh enough as it is. Not much is certain. Let someone know you love them, and don't let them forget it.
-Iain
